Life as we know it....

So things have been crazy for a few weeks...I've learned about the passing of one of my dear close friends Bob Morgers...I have had the pleasure to know him and his wife for almost ten years....In a way they have been the grandparents Ive never had. I've shared my accomplishments with and my moments of failure...They are truly the best friends anyone can ask for. I just wish I had more time to hear stories and to make some more memories with them. Though his wife Carol is still alive and well,I feel for her since she has lost her soul mate to the hands of the lord...

Back here in Germany....things are all but the same..every now and then there is a different vibe but lately we have been doing the same thing...The military wives that I spend time with are amazing and funny. The offer nothing but support and laughter for when the times get hard...And if it wasn't for them...I wouldn't have my sanity in check....

On my constant plate is the struggle to loose weight...Yesterday I started the Master Cleanse.. My cousin Lauren has done this time and time again and has always managed to lose weight...So far now I am down to 206 which is not that bad considering i was at 210....I know this is not the right way to lose weight or healthy for that matter since all i drink is maple syrup with Cayenne pepper and lemon mixed with water...but it is making me think twice about what i really put in my mouth and what I have lead myself to do with my weight getting out of control...the only reason for this drastic measure is to show the ARMY that I have made some improvements since my last weigh in a month ago...so far is I can lose one more pound on up till Friday I will be good..Since I am only required to loose 3-8 pounds a month....I don't know weight is always a battle I will have to deal with for the rest of my life and I don't think it something that I will ever win but I have to at least try for my kid sake...

So day two on Master Cleanse..I'm kinda hungry but not really...Ive made the drink too spicy though the pepper is kickin' my butt...I think the next one I will make wont be loaded with it...LOL...will see what happens later on in the week and how much I can drop after depriving my body of what it needs to survive...but more on that later.....