A new life perhaps?

So I've started a new outlook on life...a better way of living you can say or how we should be living...I am not one big on diets and eating right and doing the "healthy" lifestyle. This week for me has been somewhat of a challenge...From going to the Gym to changing how I fuel myself as needed...I'm not going to lie..I've been overweight for the past 3-4 years...I've lost count since the pounds slowly crepted on me and clothes became tighter and tighter....While forcing the food down my mouth...I cared little on what I have been eating...after all I love food and food in a way has shown its love on me all over....

This week has been going by good so far....lots of fresh fruits and grilled chicken salads for dinner....trying to keep my body fueled as I have been reading over the weeks....Its a process of what you know you should be eating and doing the right thing for you right? Today instead of the normal grilled chicken dinner like I have been eating the past few days I decided to eat pasta with meat and shortly after eating that I felt like puking I don't know why but it just didn't feel right going down...I am starting to think that my body was adjusting to the liking of eating healthy in a way...But I thought to myself, "well hey, I need at least a little bit of carbs to keep me going since I'm doing a lot of cardio now like I used to" Maybe the carbs can come in laters in play...For now I am trying to focus on re learning how to eat again and watching what I put in my mouth instead of not caring...Its going to be a long and painful process..Like I said...I LOVE FOOD!!!! I love the smell, the taste and cooking it!!! I just now have to re learn how to eat to be healthy and not just to eat because I'm bored.