People with their judgements

So here it is another day...Tuesday, stuck in an un GODLY hot office with no air or A/C not able to take off my shirt top...But the good thing I guess is that I will be off in about an hour and a half to go to the gym. I have been lackin in that area for the past few days...Although I did get a good lil 20 min cardio session in on the rowing machine last night.



So hmm back to what I meant with people and their judgements. I had to go to lunch at Burger King, now I've been trying to watch what I eat and write down what actually goes in my mouth. Its been hard but so far I have been doing it faithfully for almost a week now. But will see how much of a habit I can make this new lifestyle. But onto my story, so here I am, at Burger King. God Knowing that I want to order that Whopper w/Cheese and Fries with a shake. But instead opt for the healthy stuff and choose a salad with no dressing. While I am in line, I am starting to asset people and ponder if they really know how bad all this fast food is. I know I am not one to talk for I am a product of the fast food life and it has thrown me to the obesity end of the gene pool. I know its my fault and no one else but I also blame the fact that society has gone to shit and has mass produced food for serving sizes of like 3-4 when we should be getting just one. Oh well.

So as I am in line with my own thoughts, this female whom I really can't stand starts to look at me. The look that she gave me I know all too well, basically in my head it went like this. "Oh I know this fat ass ain't in here, knowing damn well she needs to lose some weight." Well when my number got called up my salad came up in this big ass bag like Ive ordered half the menu!!! So yeah I was kinda irked coz how it made me feel and I could also feel that bitch's eyes on my bag burning right through wondering what the hell I was eating. Oh well, to each its own right?

I just hate the fact that no matter how hard I try at something, it never comes out right. It never comes out to how it should or get any better. I've been trying hard to lose weight but it seems that I always give up when I start. I don't know why this time is any different. I do not really care if I stay in the military or not. But I do care about living longer.